the core of your body.

in the past, i've always felt my stomach from time to time. like everybody does, i mean. feeling this intuition that something is completely stupid, dangerous or worth everything because you enjoy it so damn much.
but i never had such an intense feeling before. my whole stomach tightened by the idea of working for a certain company not to be named any longer. i felt sick all over. too much work. too much responsibility. too little knowledge about that job. too little training.
you know, i've grown to be quite self-confident. more than several years ago, that's for sure. but the job really sucked, my stomach and my mind agreed big time. so i did the only thing that made sense from my point of view. from my stomach's point of view. i quitted.
not nice, but better than suffering and feeling sick and humble each day.
and wasn't it said, time and again, that the ones who recognize their weakness are a thousand times stronger than the ones who pretend and go on suffering? well, i'm convinced, that i did the right thing for my soul and my body and i thank my stomach with everything else i have.
and for sure my invaluable friends who are the diamonds in the desert and the stars in the sky. i love you guys. with my whole heart and stomach. <3 p="p">

reenactment.

because, yes. as sad as it might be, it is possible. love is beautiful but cruel. is is possible that you can fall for one and the same person time and again. you can brace yourself as good as you want, but in the end we all are slaves of our heart. so all that's left to say for me is - don't go breaking my heart, man. just don't. but we don't know what will come and what is up, but it is nice to get to know you. once again. stay to your promises. please.

i'd never let you go.

 i know it's justin, but it's still catchy and different. weird world :D

may jesus be with you-

life's never what you expect it to be. it's always unique. everday. surprising and astonishing. full of love and friendship. but also hatred and egoism. but if you open your heart, your mind and your mouth you will have a good time. with new chances and old opportunities rising again. let the games begin. http://www.tape.tv/vid/137611

what goes around comes around ♥

let life begin again. feeling amazing. despite rain. because of water. and smiling people. praying. daring. doing. or never seeing people again. it would not matter. but maybe, possibly the best is about to begin. and i have mocking arguments on my side. and back-up.

a wonderful time to each and every single person. have the best time of your life, it will never come back again. you cannot turn back the time. so live now. today. in this very second.

"better take a chance on forever than wonder 'what if' later."

sunday afternoons

originally this one should have been entirely dedicated to my biology paper - and i promise to go back to work in a few minutes - but sometimes we have to let our thoughts flow. otherwise our mind can't start working on what it should be working on.
anyway. some things aren't good combinations concerning our mental and emotional health. certain people who contact you again, several pictures, blog entries, book quotations and songs - all rising to the surface again at the same time. together with new music and old thoughts .. one can't be sure whether it will be better than before. after all the bad stuff you went through. but there's hope. and old flames which refuse to die. and if there weren't other, new people, it could be easier. but it isn't. never was and never will be. 

confusion

because we encounter times in our lives when we have no idea what to do. what to talk about. what to answer to simple questions. how to behave. what to believe and whom to trust. in this moments you just want to stop and either break down everything you used to do and be and change entirely. or you decide to stick to what you know and hope everything else around you is changing while you can remain the way you are, not excepting the challenge. so what's your choice?

Sehr geehrte Damen und Herren,

so schnell geht das. von null auf hundert in wenigen stunden. und sogar das ziel erreicht. das zwischenziel zumindest. morgen geht der brief an die post. und zwar wörtlich und metaphorisch. weil ich einfach mal so cool bin, einen brief an den briefzusteller persönlich zu schreiben - in der hoffung da bald auch mitmachen zu dürfen und ENDLICH auch mal daran mitzuarbeiten, dass meine briefe und die aller anderen menschen sicher und schnell ankommen - und ihnen hoffentlich eine freude bereitet wird.
von daher wird jetzt ab morgen gewartet und gehofft, weil das schon so eine art traumjob wäre. aber alles wird gut, wenn man das wirklich will. morgen genauso wie vor 100 jahren. ♥

valentine smile

On Valentine's Day we think of those

Who make our lives worthwhile,

Those gracious, friendly people who

We think of with a smile.

I am fortunate to know you;

That's why I want to say,

To a rare and special person:

HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY!

♥

- by Joanna Fuchs -

unwritten

that's what one of my favourite songs of all times speaks about. that THE REST IS STILL UNWRITTEN. it's a favourite because it is the complete truth. our own future is up to us, we write it and decide what the next chapter is all about. and since that is how it works, i hope to write an exciting script soon. because a book without risks and action isn't too interesting to read. we should start writting tonight, don't you think?

and what did this nice man tell us this week? believe in your dreams 20 secs a day and you'll reach them if you truly want. i definitely want and i suppose the 20 seconds are nothing to worry about. i can handle that every ten minutes.