The moment you begin to wonder why your life believes it is so damn cool and funny. When you lose control and have no idea what the hell you are doing. Or can do. When almost everything you've always taken for granted is gone and you are facing absolute uncertainty. The moment you know life will change. But it does too early; too rapidly.
Probably you just have to give in to it, join the ride and believe in the good sides. And always be true to yourself and the people around you.
Still you know that you are going to hurt some people in your life. And it breaks your heart you have to do so, but hope dies last, doesn't it. Life is getting more and more awkward and complicated. But with the right people and a lot of hope we can survive a lot.