sometimes you are making mistakes. not knowing they are mistakes. wanting them to make things better. but instead they only make it worse and you feel like you are losing controll slowly. like you go crazy. like you lost something precious. it is hard to explain. but even harder to understand.
frankly speaking i always thought i wasn't having such a trouble understanding men's psychology. that they might be just like women, just having that slightly different outward appearance. but i guess i was mistaking. because right now i feel like not understanding them at all. like they changed completely. it is just too strange to put it. And it sucks. it all sucks right now. maybe i should go to bed and try to sleep a bit instead of making it only worse. screwing up sucks.