We keep spending most our lives living in a gangsta's paradise.

My whole life waiting for the right time, to tell you how I feel, and though I tried to tell you that I need you, here I am without you. I feel so lost but what can I do? 'Cause I know this love seems real, but I don't know how to feel.
We say goodbye in the pouring rain, and I break down as you walk away. Stay. Stay. 'Cause all my life I've felt this way, but I could never find the words to say "Stay, stay".
Alright. Everything is alright since you came along. And before you I had nowhere to run to, nothing to hold on to. I came so close to giving it up, and I wonder if you know how it feels to let you go.

- HURTS - STAY -

 

 Tell me why are we
So blind to see
That the ones we hurt
Are you and me? 

 - COOLIO -

Dear Life,

I know you believe you are the greatest and coolest and best ever - really, you are! I love you so damn much, it hurts from time to time. But after the last days, weeks, months, don't you think you could go back to normal? The way it was before? It would be very comforting to feel a bit of normality and security and certainty for at least a few days, you know, relaxing a bit.
And if you have to let me know that this is beyond your abilities (yes, I really fear that it will stay like this for ever), could you please, PLEASE! try to be less irritating? I know you love it to interact with other lives and that's cool! But - it's hard to cope with it sometimes. At least animate the other lives to be nicer and more normal from time to time.
I hope your love for drama and romantic comedies or tragedies and silly soap-operas goes over as fast as it came and we can continue our perfect relationship together!

Lots of Love,
Yourself.

I knew the human exaggeration for sorrow - a broken heart. Melanie remembered speaking the phrase herself. But I'd always thought of it as a hyperbole, a traditional description for something that had no real physiological link, like a green thumb. So I wasn't expecting the pain in my chest. The nausea, yes, the swelling in my throat, yes, and, yes, the tears burning in my eyes. But what was the ripping sensation just under my rib cage? It made no logical sense.

-The Host by Stephenie Meyer - 

everything that kills me makes me feel alive.

to whom it may concern;

i'm missing you. big time.
love,

lena
xx

recover - y?

When you are like 'I love my life, it's the best there is, possibly!" and then someone or something comes and crushes it. It might just be a tiny damage for someone from the outside, but right then, for you it is horrible. It throws you back, miles and miles.
Well, thanks, man! Thank you for showing me how irrelevant I apparently have to be to you. I mean, you've had a lot of fun yourself and actually I have know it all the time - but the messages I received this week made it more than clear. Still - I don't want to give up. I have hope. And I absolutely do not get you and your weird, queer mind - in that handsome head.
At least your BF, or however close of a friend he is to you, talks to me. Oh, well. Good life. After all. I'll make some plans. Jealousy works from time to time. Even with men. Love ya, guys :*

simply

enjoy.

Those times will never come back.

what goes around ...

The moment you begin to wonder why your life believes it is so damn cool and funny. When you lose control and have no idea what the hell you are doing. Or can do. When almost everything you've always taken for granted is gone and you are facing absolute uncertainty. The moment you know life will change. But it does too early; too rapidly. 

Probably you just have to give in to it, join the ride and believe in the good sides. And always be true to yourself and the people around you.
Still you know that you are going to hurt some people in your life. And it breaks your heart you have to do so, but hope dies last, doesn't it. Life is getting more and more awkward and complicated. But with the right people and a lot of hope we can survive a lot. 


C'est la vie. C'est bien.

going on.

because now it really is to late to stop. i'll fight, but i hope i don't need to. but if i have to - i will. trust me.

i saw who you really are. and i think you are worth it. so don't disappoint me.

please.

Signs.

I hope, I am not the only person who knows that situation.When you are at a certain point of your life and are not sure which way is going to be the right one, you beg God, the heaven, the universe or whom ever to give you a sign so you can find the right track. In my case that often look like: 'Okay, if I should do this or that, please give me a sign. Now. Something up in the sky perhaps? Or led something fall to the side hear? Or ... hmm, just let me know, okay?' And nothing really happened.

But I found out that the signs do exist. Really. You just have to keep your eyes wide open and stop looking for certain things. The signs may be rather subtile, but suiting for your case. You will know. And the universe will bother you and give a chance. If you waste it, that's your own fault. It's your decision.

So maybe trust the universe. I've made a good experience with doing so.

Sunshine.

You know what should always make you smile? The knowledge that the sun is shining - every single second of your life. No matter whether there are clouds, a thunderstorm or the shining stars in your sky right now, no matter what your state of mind might be, no matter how desperate you are - the sun is always up and never stops.

So we should be shining, too.

I know, easy words, but trust me, I know how hard it can be and we don't always succeed. That would be impossible, we need to be down and cry from time to time to cope with your problems. But we should never be too desperate. 

What truly helps in situations like these is the knowledge that we are not alone on planet earth. That there are always people you can turn to. Always. Who are trying to help you and who won't give up on you. People, who can see the shining sun when you see only clouds. We should all be thankful for those persons in our lives and I am more than glad that I found one, who I believe has the power to wipe away the clouds anytime. And I won't ever give her away again. 

I hope I don't need her tonight or tomorrow to wipe away the clouds - cause there aren't going to be some, there is just to be the brightest sunshine EVER - but if I do, I know she'll be the best.

Love you, girl!

Kein direktes nein heißt vielleicht auch, dass er nicht nein sagen will ;D

Ich bin stolz :*